The Creative Life: Beginnings

2009 July 15
by Kim Werker

It began with Betsy’s tweet last February.

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Then my reply.

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We shared a few direct messages then moved to email. The short of it is that we discovered something and decided on something, too.

What we discovered is a great relief in pouring our hearts and minds out to each other about our desires, dreams, fears, confusions, and panic. What we decided to do is leave the safety of our private email and bring our conversation public. We figure it’s not likely we’re alone in our fears, or, more importantly, alone in the relief we feel when we discover we’re not in fact, say it with us now, alone.

Over the next few weeks we’re going to mildly edit and publish our initial email conversations and when we’ve exhausted those we’re going to continue our discussion just on this blog.

Our hope is to start a giant conversation with you about all sorts of things that boil down to this: What’s it like to strike off on your own into a creative field, where do you find support and community when you do it, where do you turn when it seems everyone in your life thinks you’re crazy? We’re not into compiling top-10 lists or giving advice on how to find an accountant. We’re very much into striving toward waking up each morning feeling at peace with the tasks we have to accomplish and the comfort of knowing there’ll be food on the table.

Do chime in with a comment, eh?

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  • Been living the dream *cough, cough* since 1994. It ain't all art, but it's a living.
  • This is very cool, Kim. Thank you!
  • Reading the comments, I get the feeling a rebellion is brewing. Let's burn this [censored by Zabet, who is rolling 20 for tact this month] to the ground!

    Can't wait to read more, even if it's not necessarily... um.. incendiary. ;)
  • Great discussion, Kim. Thanks for getting it started. I find I go in cycles of being excited about and drained by the business side of my creative life, I agree with Annie and others that thing like stability and health insurance are key. I also quickly loose motivation to try and sell my work when I feel like it's not valued by the industry with which I want to sell it. So again, Annie's right on--we need to cooperate, and work together to make sure our work is given fair value.
  • Meg
    This is a great idea, thank you so much for starting it. I'm in the same boat as so many of you, so I'm very excited to follow along!
  • Dang it - another blog I have to follow. :)
  • Yay - thanks so much for starting this conversation, Betsy and Kim!

    My husband is a freelance software developer and he's been successful at this for the past three years (some people don't categorize software development as "creative," but I'd challenge anyone on this - you should see some of the amazing things he creates!) In fact, he has been so successful, that I was able to quit my job last year and work full time on my creative endeavor: Quiltivate.com!

    After a year of hard work, we just launched a tool where people can design their quilts online and get detailed fabric calculations and images of their quilt and quilt block. Now that this is my full-time gig, I'm struggling to figure out how to best support both the quilting community and make a decent contribution to my own family's finances. I don't want to just be "a drain" (as Creative Origins said above). With my husband looking at switching projects in the near future, I am hoping to help support his transition as well as he has supported mine ... and it's definitely scary and overwhelming.

    So, thanks again for opening up the discussion - I can't wait to talk through this topic with others here!
  • manukenkun
    This should be interesting reading- i'm looking to go into freelance/self employed work after several years of being out of work due to illness, I think the change and risks will be similar to those faced by people thinking about ditching the 9-5 but maybe it will be easier for me as i've got so used to living on so little!? Good luck!
  • I'll definitely be following! We have these conversations with self-employed friends all the time; the (depressing) consensus seems to be that to succeed or sometimes just to get started, you have to have a partner with a good job and benefits. (Something we didn't manage to do, oops!) It's also really depressing how so many people don't want to share information. For example, I only found out last fall that being a freelancer and being self-employed are two entirely different things, as far as taxes and so on are concerned, anyway. (Which left many freelancers who were not actually self-employed at the mercy of NYC's Freelancer's Union when it turned on its members last year and started its own, very badly run, and very expensive insurance co.)

    I'm with Annie - health coverage is the biggest stumbling block (thus the many freelancers we know who rely on a partner's coverage). We buy our own (we're in a state that allows a self-employed person to be a group of one) and it's just so much time and energy sucked from our lives every year dealing with it.

    Anyway, sorry to harp, health coverage is practically an obsession for me (and a headache)! I'll be looking forward to the discussion!
  • There's a difference between freelancers and self-employed? Wha ...?
  • It has to do with how your income is reported - many freelancers are paid on W2 statements and thus are not considered self-employed, even though they get no benefits and are not "real" employees. To qualify as self-employed (for example to get small group insurance), your income must not be on W2s, it needs to be on 1099s. I had no idea...neither did a lot of other people. (That's all for people who aren't incorporated or own a business, if they are, they are employed by their corp.) There are probably even more wrinkles to it but that's all I had to learn to prove my own self-employment to the insurance company and the state. I do know that some states require a lot more to prove self-employment, but that was all I needed.
  • I'm really looking forward to following your blog. Lot of interesting comments above. It sure is hard, some days I think I know what I'm doing and where I'm going and others I'm totally confused! What seems to be important is to be open to constantly re-define what and refine how you can do what you want to do.
  • KRWKnitwearStudio
    This is such a wonderful IDEA! Seriously, I was thinking about this same issue this morning as my kids and I are driving from Staples to the Printer to Costco buying all the supplies I needed to print up my patterns for a wholesale show I am attending this next weekend here in Seattle. As my credit card was getting a workout I kept wondering what the heck I was thinking. Then when my 11 year old daughter said, "Mom, that was really really expensive! " my heart and tummy started flip-flopping!

    I worked for a Computer Company right out of college from 1990 - 1996. Prior to that from the time I was 16 until I graduated from CSU Chico I worked for Wells Fargo Bank. I loved the bank! HATED my career and was thrilled when my hubby told me I could quit when my son was born that year.

    In 1998 I started designing crochet patterns for my website.. then in 1999 sold my first one to Annie's Attic. I was literally hooked. Now 10 years later... I travel the country teaching crochet classes (And next year I go to ITALY!!), self publish, and sell some of my work to larger publishers.

    Now that I have added a new dimension to my world as far as wholesale is concerned... I feel like I am floundering again. Just when you think you are on top of the bills.. you realize business expenses that you didn't think about... and that is where I am so ready to hear what all of you have to say.

    One thing though I would like to mention is that I LOVE BEING A FREELANCER! I wouldn't trade it for the world. I could never go back to work for someone other than myself.
  • I'm really looking forward to this conversation. I'm coming at shifting to a creative life as "creative" way of dealing with disability and being unable to work a traditional job. I think we'll all have some interesting things to share. Very awesome!
  • lkailani
    I AM IN! I want to do this as well....
  • I'm very excited to see this, too, ladies! As someone who makes a living mostly through creating (craft writing/designing and freelance writing) but who is thinking about getting more into the crafty side of things, I'm certainly interested in hearing your thoughts on living a more creative life that is also sustainable financially.

    The money part is, fortunately, not a big worry for me, but getting to spend my days doing (at least mostly) what I want to do and being able to get some compensation for that is certainly where I'm trying to end up.

    Thanks for being so inspirational, ladies!
  • craftychica
    well,i began crafting full time, mass producing my designs for 3o0 retail outlets. this was from 1991-1995. it really burnt me out. i went to work at the newspaper - the trick is that if you do go back to the workforce, choose something you are interested in!

    anyway, newspaper gig - LOVED it. it brought back my creative fire and i crafted on the weekends. no pressure, 100% love. then the craft column came, a little pressure but i loved that it wasn't my whole life, it was a thick chunk but i still had writing and reporting to pay the bills. fast forward to 2007 - i took the plunge again into crafting full-time. it is a lot of work to be creative 24/7, but i make sure to have other outlets. still writing.

    it is ok to have a steady ft gig, that way the bills are covered and you can be free with your art and creating. reinvent yourself, get off the crafty treadmill to relax. again, the trick is to find a day gig that benefits you, something you really enjoy, don't settle!
  • I agree. The job I'm hoping to get is in a marketing dept. writing and designing a small magazine. I've got my fingers crossed. It's rather a long shot, because most of my experience is in TV.

    Your no pressure comment, I think, really hits it on the head for me. I cannot be creative if I'm consistently worried about having the necessities of life like housing and food. :)
  • Lee
    So excited about this project! I'm sure conversations will happen here that will help me in my somewhat new career as a struggling creative freelancer.

    I already felt the "i'm not alone" discovery hit when I read Jodi's comment about "lying awake from 2 to 4am each night, freaking out about the workload, trying to calm my racing heart while I mentally list the week's tasks instead of finding ways to get back to sleep," which i can relate to way more than i'd like!

    I think you're a perfect duo to have started this blog, and I can't wait to see it develop!!
  • I'm actually on the reverse here with wanting to get back to a 9-to-5 job.

    I have been trying to grow a business for the past 2 1/2 years. Although, I'm not sure if antiques and a failed eshop count as creative businesses. :) The eshop was a failure from the get-go for reasons that I blogged about on Indiepreneur.org. The antiques business was doing well until the economy died.

    Our savings are gone, including my 401K's and, quite frankly, I need a rest. I know that sounds ridiculous, but self-employed means working way more than 8 hours a day ... and I worry about keeping a roof over our heads constantly.

    When I was working full-time, I came home and wrote. In fact, I won a screenwriting competition WHILE I was working full-time. Why didn't I write these past 2 years instead of trying to be a shopkeeper? Beats the heck out of me.

    Anyway, I'm subscribing to The Creative Life. I can't wait to read the back and forth.
  • I am lucky to have a husband who can solely handle the financial side of our lives, allowing me to do what I choose. But, I would love for my obsession to be a contribution, rather than a drain. Can't wait to hear more...
  • What Creative Origins said.
  • nutmegknitter
    Kudos and thanks to both of you. I too worked a "normal" job then left to be a stay-at-home mom always planning to go back... and now, 2 years later, I haven't. I am finding that I really find more satisfaction in the craftier side of things and would love to find a way to make that work for me (as it's work I enjoy doing. Like what you do and you'll never really work a day in your life right?) . I've been putting out feelers but perhaps what I need is a community support :)
  • NexStitch
    Kim, you're definitely not alone. I've been struggling with this for years too. I'd so love to leave my day job - which just adds unnecessary and sometimes uncontrollable stress - and pursue my creative endeavors. The scariest leap is in paying the bills and having medical coverage. So I applaud your efforts to bring this conversation to light. As for finding resources, I recommend www.theswitchboards.com for anyone who is trying to take that leap and needs advice, support, resources, etc. in creative fields. Many of the (mostly) women on that site have successful businesses, and some have left the day job behinid and are paying the bills.
  • andismith
    you know, it may be naive of me, but I kinda assumed that designers such as you Kim, and Annie, were pretty much set as far as finances in this field. On the one hand, it's very reassuring that we are all in the same boat, on the other hand, it does make one wonder if this is an attainable goal? I must agree with Annie that the need for "us" to band together is more urgent than ever.
  • I've never been a designer; I've made my living as a writer and editor
    (where "made my living" never equaled "got rich"). We won't be focusing
    specifically on any one creative profession here on the blog (though Betsy
    and I are both writers, and so there might be some focus on that), but I'm
    really glad that more focused conversations are making their way here, too.
  • We were forced into our creative life, but even after living this way for a year a support system like this will be great! I think our biggest concern after leaving the 9 to 5 was money. We've learned that the amount of money that we thought we needed to live was drastically different than the amount we really needed.

    Now, I worry about having my dream clash with customer's interests and having to change who I am, to make earn a living. :(
  • Oh, Lili, never change who you are. There's no sense at all in crafting your
    own career if you're miserable doing it. Also, I know you, so I can say with
    confidence that you're lovely! Your customers' interests shouldn't take away
    from your comfort being yourself; if they do, it's time to find new
    customers.
  • So excited about this project! I'll follow it with interest. What with going back to grad school to become a librarian, I'm not exactly striking out pursuing that creative life yet, but it's something I definitely want to do, ever, and I look forward to watching (and maybe being part of) the conversation.
  • This will definitely be easier for those of us in the States when there's a decent health care alternative to the kludgy and terrible system we have now.

    Please - PLEASE - do comment and talk honestly about the need for freelancers to band together (as guilds, unions, etc.) so that we're not all individually at the mercy of whatever X publisher or Y organizer cares to pay.

    We also need to band together so that we're not played against each other (which happens with alarming frequency - even the vague threat that 'there are younger designers who are chomping at the bit to work for less' is enough to panic established designers into accepting terrible compensation.

    I'm sure you saw it, and I don't mean to hijack any readers, but I addressed the teacher compensation / travel fee dilemma at my blog a few days ago.

    http://www.modeknit.com/2009/07/creating-profes...

    Like healthcare in the US, this is the 800 pound gorilla in the room that MUST be addressed by those of us who have chosen a freelance fiber career.

    Good on you for keeping the discussion public, and for allowing all of us along for the journey!
  • I am SO glad you two are starting this discussion. I opened The Creative Fitness Center in 1996 to create a place where people could "work out" their creative muscles so that they could create the life they wanted. It worked! So I started to write a book so EVERYONE could experience the empowerment. In 2004 I re-opened CFC as tHE aRT hOUSE with a new biz partner and also a wine bar next door to create a larger platform for our artists AND because my ARTIST WITHIN voice whispered, "The wine bar will lead to the book." It did! The Artist Within, A Guide to Becoming Creatively Fit was published Nov. 2008 and is in B & N nation wide! My motivation is to make ART and CREATIVITY vital and valuable to EVERYONE. (i.e. I do a lot of corporate workshops) When this happens all of us "creatives" will be better able to pay the bills from our creative efforts. Read Dan Pink's A Whole New Mind, Why Right-Brainers Will Rule the Future? He endorsed my book and has been interviewed by Oprah in her mag. All this to say, please check out my website www.creativelyfit.com and let me know what else I can do to help. I will tweet for sure. Together we can usher in a new age where creativity is at an entirely new level! Cheers! Whitney
  • Ha, Jodi I completely know what you mean! I'm really excited about this conversation and seeing how it is going to progress, thank you for putting it out there ladies!
  • Great topic, of interest to so many of us out there! I long to make fiber my full time career and quit the other but don't feel like I'm in the right place in life yet to do so. I can't wait to hear more of your thoughts life choices such as this. Guaranteed to be interesting and thought provoking.
  • I'm not sure it's "guaranteed", but we'll certainly do our best!

    Thanks, everyone, for your thoughtful comments!
  • jenniferjaybird
    Looking forward to this!! Thank you so much! My dream is to be able to support my hubby and myself with my designing once he retires and we move into our RV!
  • zzwhitejd
    Good luck ladies! Even with not needing to raise the household money I still struggle with using my time effectively and moving forward with my crafty endeavors. I more often fail than succeed.
  • paigeorloff
    Totally inspiring and can't wait to read more from you both....
  • I left my "9-5" (teaching isn't really a 9-5, more like a 5am-9pm!) after my first trimester, for reasons that didn't have a whole lot to do with the pregnancy itself. Alice is a year old and I've spent a good chunk of the past year being "Alice's mother" and floating ideas that will allow me to make a living in a non-traditional way so that I continue to stay home with Alice (and future sibs?). I'm looking forward to this conversation!
  • Yes! The bit that resonates most for me: "waking up each morning feeling at peace with the tasks we have to accomplish". Scrabbling around to make a living in a piecemeal manner would be so much more rewarding and less stressful if I could only stop lying awake from 2 to 4am each night, freaking out about the workload, trying to calm my racing heart while I mentally list the week's tasks instead of finding ways to get back to sleep.
  • I look forward to hearing more about this. I'm also yearning to live and support myself (and family) in a creative way. While I'm not too worried about people thinking I'm crazy, I'm way more concerned with the financial part of living this way. Thanks for starting this blog. I'm looking forward to this journey.
  • cjcj
    ladies - I applaud you for looking at that panic straight in the eye and starting a conversation about this. I haven't left the 9-5 world...yet. But when I do, I will be prepared and I look forward to learning and reading more from my creative peers.
    Hip hip hooray!
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