Tackling Mosquito Nets
Email from 12 March 2009
Kim!
Hooray for still wanting to write stuff! (Ok, so I’m not very eloquent this evening.) That’s great!
And what’s even greater is that you are worried to be awesome! It seems like a problem that can easily be chipped away at… in time? Or does that sound insane? I’m “scared to fail” right now, but I’m pretty convinced it’s due directly to living in a town that’s too comfortable to be in. There’s absolutely no reason to grow or challenge yourself here*, and I’m kind of living the same life I was living here 10 years ago, which is terrifying. When I start challenging myself and moving forward, I’m that healthy kind of scared that rules, and when I sink into a rut, I become one “slack motherfucker.” (To quote a lyric that was written in this town!) [Hear it here.]
When I start moving forward, however, I get scared to be awesome. Because awesome means change, which means changing…which is LAME because change is good for us! So, we’re possibly in the very same boat, although my boat has a giant mosquito net over it that I need to tackle into submission.
I like the idea of posting the Tweets and emails and general frustrations to start out with! In PDX maybe we can find some time to suss it further out in person?! Yay! So excited! Sweet!
So when you think about it, what kind of responses would you like to have? Just curious as that brings it to a “who’s the audience? is there an audience?” level.
x
betsy
*Yes, people challenge themselves here. I love where I live. But it can be all too easy to get too comfortable somewhere. The “how” part can be a mystery, the “when” part is simple: when you stop growing, something has to change. And as for change, the “where” and “what” parts depend on “you” individually. The “why” part? Ah, there’s the rub.
